The Merriam-Webster Dictionary defines “recovery” as “the process of becoming healthy again”. For those of us with mental and/or chronic illness, it can often seem as though becoming healthy again is something that is either completely out of reach, or so far away that we can’t imagine what it must be like.

I hate the word “recovery”. It gives a false sense of hope. It makes people who don’t know all the details think we’re going to recover completely from whatever we are fighting with, in our minds and in our bodies.

For many, “recovery” is unattainable. We are never going to become healthy again. Of course, not everyone wants to hear this, but at some point we have to face the facts…chronic illness sucks. Mental illness sucks. Sometimes it feels like EVERYTHING sucks, but we know that’s not true, even though it may feel like it is.

I am writing this post knowing that it may offend people. For a lot of people, the concept of “recovery” is something they cling to when they have nothing else, and this is something I admire greatly.

But I can’t do it. I can’t lie to myself and think that I am going to recover.

And if it’s a “partial recovery”?

Well, then let’s come up with a new word. What do you think?