For the first two years my psychiatrist was treating me, she was treating primarily for depression, with anxiety as the secondary thing that she was trying to treat. I kept telling her that I was depressed because I was feeling anxious (and physically terrible) and she kept insisting that I was really depressed and that the depression was causing the anxiety. This was before my Chronic Fatigue Syndrome was diagnosed, and desperate for some relief, I went along with her treatment recommendations.

In retrospect, now that I know about the CFS, I believe that my treatment-resistant depression can be largely attributed to that. I mean…if you were so exhausted that you could barely move most of the time, wouldn’t you be depressed too? Wouldn’t you feel anxious about life? I know I have an anxiety disorder, and I know I have depression, but my CFS diagnosis has completely changed how I look at and approach everything.

Having a chronic illness changes your entire life. It can make doing even the simplest of things, things that you took for granted “before”, impossible. Something as simple as brushing your teeth can suddenly seem insurmountable. Putting food in the microwave to heat it up seems like too much effort, even though your brain tells you it’s not that bad. Everything seems like a challenge, and the entire time, your brain tells you that you need to just push through and do it. For some, pushing through works…unfortunately, for a lot of people with CFS and similar conditions, pushing through is not an option and can result in an exacerbation of symptoms.

If you have been diagnosed with mental health issues and chronic illness(es), stop for a moment and think about this. Is it the same for you? Based on my experience, this seems like something that is probably more prevalent than people think it is. It took the CFS diagnosis for my psychiatrist to change her view on my treatment, and things are starting to look up in terms of my mood. Now, if I just had the energy to do the things I want to do, I’d be good to go!